Monday, 8 September 2014

Not Wasted?: An Essay on Accumulation and Volume in Contemporary Culture

The following is an extract from my 2013 essay Not Wasted. This essay formed the major project of my Masters in Creative Writing at UTS Sydney. It is 12 000 words in total and is intended to be the first of four long essays in an upcoming volume dealing with similar themes. 


photo: Waste Not by Song Dong, Carriageworks Sydney



1.

Content is what we carry as humans. It builds up around us, the same way the bricks and mortar of a home go up bit by bit on a piece of vacant land. It remembers who we are as we move from place to place, pack and unpack, whittle down if we have the mettle. Content is what we need and desire and find a place for day by day. We stand back and remark at it, our own and each other’s, covet it and guard it as the context of our lives. It stands by, an understudy while we play, and speaks in our place when we’re gone.
Each of us has our own particular measure of where the scales should sit on content, somewhere between keep and chuck. But a relationship to material goods goes beyond domestic calibration. In the western world, our economic well being relies on us chasing regular interchanges for our worldly possessions. They are not meagre things but the chance to fulfil a duty. Our capacity to accumulate is now our capacity to contribute to our world, to hold it afloat. We must spend freely and waste appropriately to keep it ticking over.

The appeal of Waste Not was obvious to me. On a Thursday morning towards the end of its three month run, I stood essentially alone but for the occasional staff member walking briskly and inattentively past or the gallery attendant immediately sensitive to my presence but careful not to impede my own design through the space.
Sunlight stencilled the skeleton of a house across its contents, a room some five metres squared, stripped of its walls, just a frame of beams and trusses pieced together from steel pipes, bamboo lengths and motley off-cuts of timber. One side was partially filled with square glass windows and an old wooden door for which there was no need. Surrounding the shelter, thousands of household items spilled onto the floor, they stretched at least 30 metres in one direction and maybe fifteen in the other, an optical illusion of grand proportion: how had an entire gallery of stuff come out of that one small structure?
Despite longing to see the exhibition, I stood immobilised before something I had no desire to disturb, a geography of some 10 000 contours of colour and texture and shape, familiar and unfamiliar, overwhelming and tempting all at once. The obvious impact of the show is in the macro. But at the same time I felt an urgent desire to explore the micro, a fetishized hunger for the objects before me, an inclination akin to wanting to eat hundreds and thousands one by one.
A young man in shorts and specs shuffled between the plywood boards on which the items were grouped. He moved a bucket alongside him, and a dustpan and broom. He stopped at a blue fabric handbag, held it up to the light and wiped its front and strap. Should he be touching that so casually? And he must have seen me staring because he looked up and smiled: We do it almost everyday. We just start at one end and work across. Just like housekeeping. He swept at the bag’s dusty doppelganger, wiping its contours away and replaced the bag where it had been.
             I took off past a group of washed take-away boxes, their lids flipped open like hungry jaws. And then two perfect regiments of the foam nets which cocoon paw paws or other tropical fruits in transit. Fabric in bundles and stacks, a wardrobe filled with perfectly folded squares. Shoes in pairs, large and small, summer and winter, a vast square of them laid out beside a bed. I walked past hats and scarves and hair clips, baskets, bird cages; it was just like sightseeing.  Software and hardware, of every type and size from the largest paintbrushes to the elements of the tiniest household globes, and then on towards pots, basins, cups, dishes, cutlery. Watches, lighters, pens. I came to a stop in front of an assortment of toys or toy parts so confounding as to elicit audible wonder: the single arm of a black doll no bigger than an adult digit; a miniature bed; what looked like the tortured bits of coloured plastic found only in Christmas crackers, poorly moulded plastic guns, dummies, pineapples, mirrors, cars.
These objects were placed with clear intention, sorted and arranged by type, each set confined to its board, each board laid out across the floor like canvases across a wall, pages across a text, a choose your own adventure of deep proportions. From time to time, I came across an odd gathering of the most unfamiliar objects, together like a family of misfits, seemingly beyond utility or ornament, beyond function or aesthetics as I knew them. In fact, these objects stood out the most, one offs which were somehow vital to the whole picture. Orange sticks, bra inserts, empty medicine boxes.
Easy with this work to become consumed in detail, to become consumed by the desire, the responsibility, the commitment to see every object before you.

The gallery attendant approached. We talked a while about favourites, hers and mine. She told me stories of people’s looking, stories of people’s stories: the woman who stood over an arc of common textas as if they were rare wonders; two friends who argued about whether it is right or wrong to get rid of your own things before you are gone, whether it’s a curse or a gift to leave them to your children; or the gentleman who was told by his wife to sell off the attic contents on ebay, who hesitated to post paid-for goods for fear his customers were inheriting unnecessary things. He sent emails to check if they really needed the item before he completed the sale. I thought of my grandmother’s cupboards after she had moved into care and of my battle to claim the spare room in our house which is still filled with my partner’s archives which he cannot sort and empty. It’s really the perfect art work isn’t it? Intensely personal but universal. As she said it I wondered whose personal and whose universal? At that point, the personal belonged to me and the other viewers, an interesting role reversal between maker and audience. But the specific was definitely mine, an already long series of subjective connections through which I was seeing the actual things before me. I still had little idea of what their collectivity was ‘really’ about.


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